in need of female talk.

mayday.over.

time to shut out?

i dunno.

maybe it'll just be me and alki. hmmm.

because i'm damn pissed and hungry.

you know what's terribly wrong with this world?

everyone only looks all the shit and wrongs you do rather than the good things you've done.

1 mistake eliminates 1000 rights.

well, to people who can't see past the wrong that a person does, you can shove it.

i'm absolutely sick and tired of people treating you like crap just because of one wrong thing you've done.

there's no need for sarcastic and cynical remarks when a small tiny, rectifiable mistake is done.

no need. understand?

just say, okay next time, try not to repeat it and move on with life la!

be forgiving. not judgmental.

i'm not saying i don't do it.

i'm saying we all need to work on it.

SO, work on it!

(even though i'm hungry - i'm not gonna eat)

oh wow, its been awhile now.

anyways, since i have a little bit of time before class, i shall UPDATE! (like finally *rolls eyes*)

okay, so the workload has lessened considerably because the BOSS isnt around to be signing things. so, ive been having good days at work because there's less stuff to do yet enough to keep the clock ticking till i go home or go for class - usually the latter.

now that i am in class and blogging (which is strange), classes are okay la. coping i guess. need to keep up with the studying and all though.
and i am in dire need to do some assignment (as they call it), which in actual fact are just past year questions. they give the answer anyway. so all i need to do is just write them out brainlessly? if there is such a thing to begin with.

ANYWAY, on a more interesting note:
i have become BORING - with a capital B(eeeeee).
thats what the working life has in store for you people, a lifeless life where you earn money, work to climb the corporate ladder at the expense of the ex-student-bumming-sleeping-drinking-partying life!
tsk.

i r boreng.

oh bloggie, its been awhile. I'm I neglected you these past few weeks - I've been so busy nonetheless its a sad pathetic excuse.

Please, forgive me bloggie.

(okay, apology accepted)

Right! on to the major stuff now. not like there's anything major major la. major major major major (Catch-22 no?)

CLP,

you are scaring the lights and nuts and monkeys out of me.

but i will not fear you.

i shall conquer you and kill you! muahahaha.

Stomach,

why art thou treating me so terribly?

why art thou disobedient and in much anguish most of the time?

is there not one day or days that you can remain happy and content?

Car my fiance,

you are so near yet so far,

i sense your breeze, your scent, your touch and feel

but you are nowhere to be found.

i hope that in a few days we will be united

as i continually long for your presence.

to my readers,

this is a sign of....(please fill in the blank) :)

a year from yesterday marked the first day i stepped into Liverpool, in my new 10-month room. boy, was it a feeling.

i recall slumping down at the edge of the bed trying to hold my tears and with everything hit me at once, i burst into tears. good tears that needed to be rid of in the beginning.

it was the fact that i was an "alien" surrounded by the unknown, in a place i was absolutely clueless about - i didn't even know where the bathroom was in my own flat. (yes, it was that bad).

there was a hunt for a pillow - really, it was a "hunt".

then it was the fact that i didnt have any appetite nor did i eat on my 17 -hour plane ride.

coupled with the fact that my internet was on wireless i.e. slow and unreliable.

BUT

all was well the next day :)

there was a festival on the street opposite where i lived which DEFINITELY liven the mood.

bumped into a classmate who helped me get some essentials i.e. plates, pans etc.

went to a chinese church nearby which was well-weird for me but nonetheless gave me a little hope.

had e-mails from a contact to another church that really blessed me in the end ;)

so yes, i remember the cold hard first day of my life in Liverpool but i also cherish every moment onwards of God's blessingS in my life.

i truly enjoyed my time there and often wish i was there with my 'family', laughing, talking and eating together.

<3>

:)

work is keeping busy as you can tell from the silence of my blog. hehehe.

BUT

i am enjoying it very much.

its a job with a "cause" that i definitely support and believe in.and the best thing is that im being paid to do it - in spite of all the legal work etc.

i get to travel to! woohoo!

it is absolutely amazing to know what is gonna happen for Malaysia :) exciting indeed.

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on a different note.

may i be liberty to say that, i was right all along! i know its not nice to say it but its a comfort for myself to know that whatever crossed my mind/my putting of different pieces of observations together has been right all along although i've been left in the dark for quite awhile.

benefit of doubt as we call it.

but anyways, thats besides the point.

the hollowness of a worldly life.

the never comprehending/understanding of peace or joy.

the running and chasing after a cloud.

the dreams that become 'were' or meaningless.

meaningless, meaningless!

is there an answer?

eternal.

updating as requested by naya :)

SO

i have started working.

working life is.. quite enjoyable actually but at the same time its really mentally tiring.

my spelling and my grammar has to be PERFECT - in English and Bm.whaliaoweh.who said BM isn't important hmm? but anyways, people are unforgiving for spelling and grammatical mistakes. how la like that? my eyes are going bonkers cause of having to face the computer all the time!

and

i'm getting my OWN car. hahaha. with a loan and everything man. talk bout growing up and being independent - comes with debts.

but the pissing off bit is that my loan is getting through! their taking ages to get the loan approved and i am pissed. cause no loan = no car = inconvenienced me. apa macam doh?!

so yes, i await patiently for my dear car.

classes start soon too. which means work, class, sleep, work, class, sleep :(

BUT raya break is like after a week of classes, yay! :D but no open house to go to also :( booo.

and i have some weird insect bites all over me! grrr.

okay tis all :D