things fit into its place in its own time.

the past week has been a time of refreshing and reflecting for me. didn't get as much reflection as i wanted to but it was still good nonetheless.

i've had a non-stop week.today's probably the first day i got to sleep as long as i want and not do any mechanical things or 'work'.from penang, to the conference, to church and meetings and cell.a ball of busyness i say.
despite it being a ball, its still manageable and overall, a good time for me to learn a little more about the working culture if different offices.

so, as i was saying, i've learnt tons from the edgenet conference.

1. Kingdom Culture:
The culture of church is set by its leaders. Every person brings in a smell or an aroma into the church. Yet, ONE bad smell would make the whole place reek. The Kingdom culture talks about a culture that is the SAME inside and outside church. It is about having a church without walls. That we as children of God ARE the church and ambassadors for Christ. His Kingdom, reigns in us because of the Holy Spirit.

2. What kind of a bird are you?
Turkey - they eat and eat and eat and only get fat so that they can be served on Thanksgiving.
Parrots - repeat the vision of the leaders, it isn't a conviction.
Eagles - they exude the discipline of being a disciple. when they're feathers get matted (as in all ruffled, and bent and out of shape, etc) they go to a high mountain that is nearby a river and begins plucking all its feathers with its beak. it then swoops down to the river to clean itself and return to the mountain. it spreads itself under the sun for 40 days - not idle, but sharpening its beak and claws (i can't remember the exact word)

3. Trust in Him.
Proverbs 16:9
I have all these plans for my career. Like a good solid 5 year plan. The thing is, i may plan as much as i want, dream as big as i want, but i know that God is the only one who can make things happen. yeah some of you may say that you can control these things like getting what you want, going for the goal, making things happen and not waiting for it to fall on your lap - yes, i agree BUT the point is, if it isn't meant to be, it won't be. God's will will be done at the end of the day and i believe in that with all my heart.
I've been reminded of a certain 'calling' that God has given me. i don't truly know what it is yet, but i do know that i'm in the midst of preparing for it.

4. I smell the death of a season.
My current season is ending and its time to move on.
Time is ticking but accpeting reality, doesn't exactly move in accordance with time.

i was in Penang from the 20th - 24th June and it was the awesomemest, bestest holiday ever because of the company (readers to say "AWWWW" in a sweet tone)

BUT the downside of it is that I AM FAT NOW!like chubby chubby fat cause of all the food that i ate there and its not even a very diverse variety! we missed quite a lot of stuff at penang and i think we didn't exactly go to the BEST but we did go to the sedap ones :) hehe.making sense?

conclusion:
I AM FAT!

my heart is not as strong as my mind and neither is my heart strong enough to assist my mind; that is the tragedy of both.

it is difficult to walk through a maze with a plan in your mind but with a gut feeling so intense that drags you to another. it leads you to dark places, where only a brief peek of light is allowed in its absence.yet, it feels so right.
but the mind screams at you that is wrong.
eventually, all things come to slow and you don't care if you reach the end of the maze or not.whether you get out of it.
you take a stroll down memory lane, with tears in your eyes.
everything is so blur but the release it gives your heart...it is incomparable.
the tears roll down endlessly, in its own time.
every guard that you've spent time building is but a shattered piece of glass. but, it doesn't matter anymore.

mazes are meant to be lost in.

freak accidents.

it happens all the time.

today, i was attempting to run up the stairs when i slip and fell.OUCH.
BOTH my shins are bruised now and so is my right thigh. it. is. bad.

looks like i won't be wearing shorts for awhile. :( boohoo.


EURO cup! :D

i find that lesbians are generally more expressive of their homosexuality than gays are.
BUT people are more aware of gays than they are of lesbians.

the petrol price hike isn't that bad comparatively to the rest of the world.
BUT in the context of the Malaysian society and economy, it can have quite a drastic effect if proper measures are not taken to ensure that the quality of life of the rakyat are not compromised.

flowers makes me happy.

i like to cook for people.cause eating good food makes people happy. and people eating good food that i cooked makes me happier :D

i feel like eating jap food. salmon saaaaaaaaashimi. *drools*

*note: i think salmon sashimi is best when its cut in thin slices and not thick fat ones
okay la, i'll consider a barter trade, you take me for jap food, i cook for you.how's that sound?
hehehe :P any offerors?

this is he.
or supposedly is. he's still hot nonetheless!

yes, it's fictional.
about a human falling in love with a vampire.how cliche i know. BUT ITS NOT ONE LEAST BIT CLICHE OKAY!

its such a good book! i won't say anything anymore cause then if or rather WHEN you do read the book, you might have to high an expectation and be disappointed.but anyways, give it a go and read the book.its addictive!
and no its not a chick flick.


sigh.
edward cullen.
amazing, your love knows not danger nor does it seek repose from the comfort of another. all that matters to you is one, your one. and that is all that matters.
the love, your love, is inexplicable to the point of defying your very nature for the sake of loving and protecting her and only her.
and you, his love, has such bravery and courage unknown to man.if anything were to threaten life as much as it did to you, most would coward away in a little how, to surpress..repress all that is felt into a tiny little ball and shove it aside in our memories. but you chose to endanger yourself, no, not yourself, you kind; just to love one.
stepping out into a mystery, the unknown so that you could love without holding back, love with no restrains, whatever the cost, whoever the person; it didn't matter to you.only he did.

only if it could really be so.

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fuel prices are increasing AGAIN!
this is utterly absurd. yes, they have a perfect logical reasoning to do so. since fuel prices around the world are higher, they have to subsidize more for the people to keep the fuel prices low. but since they THINK that the money can be used better elsewhere for better development of the country and what knot, they decided to INCREASE FUEL PRICES AND NOT INCREASE THE SUBSIDY.
now, to me, the last bit is absurd. petronas is earning billions and billions of dollars from the demand of fuel prices.if their earnings are so high, they could at least spare the people, the rakyat a little more money than their pockets are thinking la kan?
you know, if the government had been more carefully with taxpayers money and not waste it on abandoned projects like the Singapore-Johor bridge and the dam project, the money could have been used to help the people.

NOW that they've already declared the fuel price increase.there are only 2 things on my mind.
1. THE PUBLIC TRANSPORT SYSTEM BETTER BE MORE EFFICIENT AND AFFORDABLE TO THE PEOPLE.
if the government doesn't ensure this, they are obviously out to kill the people. probably want to make our homes and country a hell hole to live in.

2. THEY BETTER NOT BE WASTING ANYMORE OF THE TAXPAYERS MONEY.

3. another thing that bothers me most is that people's salaries are not going to increase in tandem or exponentially with the increase of fuel prices.
one thing that is predictable is that employees who were once benefiting from company subsidy for fuel, will no longer enjoy such incentives and privileges. in order for the company to survive this sudden outrageous fuel price increase.


and you know what is even more outrageous?!
electricity prices are increasing with effect on July 1st by 12%

MIND AS WELL GO BACK TO LIVE IN FREAKING CAVES AND HUNT RIGHT?!


ugh.talking bout this makes me sick.

okay okay i am back here for the day to post some stuff.

my favourite phrase for the week: I'M ON A 4 MONTH HOLIDAY. :P

and no, i don't think i feel much of a bum becauseeee i'll be doing some miscellaneous stuff, which will inevitably keep me busy. and NO, i am not going to be paktoh-ing everyday for the rest of my holidays, i do have a life other than him you know ;)
(shhhh..i might die of his "gases" if i spend too much time with him.get it?hehe.he doesn't read here so its fine)

well, a little check list that i have for the hols are:
1. help out with Sri Nobel, which i already am actually
2. read
3. spend time with Godly people
4. spend time with nadiahmad! and the rest of the group
5. spend time with my parents
6. go down to singapore to visit my relatives
7. do my passport
8. get my visa; P.S: anybody with any tips for me?!
9. spend time with my girls.sigh, i'm gonna miss them so much
10. prepare myself mentally, emotionally and spiritually for UK - this is gonna take a lot of time alone, reflecting, thinking, praying. solitude is the word.
11. make use of my time here to contribute as much as i can to people's lives while i still have the benefit of the closeness with them. cause you know when you leave, things change and a lot of friendships just..die down?something like that. i'm terrible at keeping in touch. that much i know.
12. sleep? pig out?
13. COOK! i will cook anything for anyone! :) ask me to cook you a meal and i'll gladly do it.provided, you go grocery shopping with me :D hehe.the rest, leave it to me.hehe.
exclusion clause: in the event that you get food poisioning, diarrhea, stomach aches or any pain in relation to your digestive system, i will not be held liable :)

ola!

i am done with my exams and have 4 months to bum around! :) hehe.

well, err.i dont have anything to blog at the moment because i am currently so sick of writing, due to the exams.

tootsie rolls!